When are you grown up?
But just because we’re physically getting older doesn’t mean we emotionally age.
And the truth is that I didn’t feel like a grown up for a very long time. So today, for my Friday musings, I thought I’d answer that question.
Sheila’s Musings: When Did You Feel Like a Grown Up
It has taken me a long time to feel like I’m actually a grown up.
I thought I’d feel like I was a grown up when I got married, but I didn’t.
I thought I’d feel it when I had kids, but I didn’t.
But sometime in the last decade I have crossed a line. I don’t know where it was, but I am now a grown-up. And I’m trying to figure out how I define it.
I knew I was a grown up with men when I could stop asking, “Does he like me?”, and start asking, “Do I like him?”.
I knew I was a grown up when I could begin to make a recipe without a recipe book and without worrying whether it was how my mother-in-law would make it.
I was a grown up when I stopped worrying what other people thought of my children’s behaviour and just concentrated on being the best mom I could be.
I was a grown up when I started taking better care of myself, like caring what I looked like again and not just hiding the earrings in the drawer because I couldn’t figure out how to wear them when the kids liked to pull on them. When I started prioritizing feeling good in my body, I felt like a grown up.
I was a grown up when I called my mom for her advice, and not her approval.
I was a grown up when I could calmly talk to a salesperson about what their establishment had done that was beyond the pale, instead of letting them walk all over me.
I knew I was a grown up when I could start looking at other people’s kids and at teens and telling them what I honestly thought instead of being intimidated into worrying that I’d be labelled “the mean mom”.
I knew I grew up when the fact that my father didn’t understand me became a cause for pity for him, rather than for angst, anger, or introspection on my behalf.
I was a grown up when I started letting myself dream dreams, instead of living out the dreams of my family members.
I felt like a grown up when I could pray with other women in my church, even older ones, and feel like I could offer some counsel.
I felt like a grown up when I acted like others were my equals, instead of feeling insecure around those who were of higher rank or status than I was. Once I realized that didn’t matter, I knew I had grown up.
I felt like a grown up when I could see someone and have a conversation and not remember until the next day that I was supposed to be mad at them. I guess I don’t carry grudges anymore.
I knew I was a grown up when I could ask people over for dinner and not worry about whether they’d like what I made. I’d just cook what I liked, and figured everybody else would make do.
And I know I’m a grown up now that I can admit my faults to other people rather than trying to pretend to be perfect. I know now that there’s no point in pretending.
And I feel like a grown up now because I’m realizing that this isn’t my life; the next life is my real life. This is only preparation. So I think I can let go of things a lot easier now and not worry so much what other people think.
What about you? Do you feel like a grown up, or do you still struggle with it? What makes you a grown up?
Leave a comment! I’d love to know!
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